I want to pallet the neon sky

January

• Learned to drive (like a boss)
• Cried. A lot.
• Resumed a previously ceased habit
• Had a really bad time.

February

• Spent this month in a funk, probably due to January
• Wrote about Australia a lot

March

• Started my first college semester
• Did my first child development center observation

April

• Ended my first college semester with a 4.0

May

• Started a new journal
• Tried to end January’s habit
• Reconnected with an old friend
• Had a few “deep” talks 
• Watched Kick Ass
• Washed my car for the first time
• Started making my own toothpaste
• Started making my own shampoo
• Tried sushi
• Coloured my hair with henna for the first time
• Met my friend’s fiance
• Spent a lot of time annoyed
• Bought 2 betta fishes
• Started the summer term at college
• Discovered Ommwriter
• Discovered 750 words

June

• Went to my friend’s wedding dress fitting
• Ruined a lot of oatmeal
• Started killing spiders
• My fish died
• Bought more fish
• They died eventually
• Started listening to Yelle

July

• Ended the summer term with a 4.0
• Found out my sister in law is pregnant again
• Started listening to WHY?
• Bought John Gourley’s daughter some bottles (‘cause I’m not creepy or anything)

August

• Went to a friend’s wedding
• Begrudgingly photographed my first and fucking last wedding.
• Got mortified.
• Picked up a brand new bad habit.
• Started fall semester

September

• Celebrated my nephew’s 2nd birthday 
• Decided to support Gary Johnson for president in 2012

October

• Got drunk for the first time
• Made out with a friend.
• My stomach problems started getting worse again
• Got my hopes up

November 

• Got my hopes down. Way down
• Got even sicker
• Spent Thanksgiving with Amber

December

• Stomach problems got really bad
• Started having joint pain
• Started having weird stress/pain related rash again
• Ended the fall semester with a 4.0
• Permit expired
• Turned 21
• Still haven’t stopped randomly bursting into tears about that.
• Started listening to Hymie’s Basement
• Started listening to cLOUDDEAD
• Got Elephant Eyelash for my Birthday
• Got Alopecia and Eskimo Snow for Christmas

I’m sure there’s more but. No.

fuzzyfuckingllamas:

• a pain free day
• an endless supply of warmed blankets
• pajama pants/sweat pants
• sweatshirts
• stuffed animals
• anything lavender scented
• warm socks
• tea
• toast
• heat packs
• books
• relaxing music
• a cure

While I understand the want for a cure, I thought the rest of the list was cute because for christmas/birthday I received:

A few pairs of warm winter socks
A big fluffy comfy body pillow 
A bed rest pillow
A moist/dry heating pad
WHY?’s Alopecia, Elephant Eyelash, and Eskimo Snow vinyls
Wireless headphones
And my mom made me tea

So I ended up with a lot of the stuff on that list :P

Which is fortunate because today I felt great, made myself a juice from an apple, an orange, 2 big carrots, a teeny piece of ginger (oh did I learn my lesson when I used too much ginger… sorry tongue here is some acid to calm that ginger down!) a handful of baby spinach, 5 strawberries, 2 celery stalks, and some broccoli, as in, a humongous plate of food that was conveniently made into about 12 oz of juice. I was feeling great, happy, energized, stomach was fine. Went to Christmas Eve dinner and had 4 glasses of water with a lemon, 1 slice of pepperoni pizza, and a couple sips of disgusting merlot. So about two hours later I had 1 and 1/2 Queen Anne cherries (you know, the chocolate, creamy, delicious ones?).

Felt great. Prepared my fruits and veggies to juice for tomorrow, when suddenly, where my esophagus and stomach meet all the way to what I am guessing is the begging of my large intestine felt like they were on fire. Like a cramp made out of fire. Just out of no where. It hurt so bad. I went from 0 pain to about an 8. I just stopped doing dishes and went into my mom’s room and just cried “I don’t know what is happening, I’m on fire” (I have the best descriptions. Once in high school gym class, before doing ANYTHING other than walking to the field, I went up to my coach and said “need help. my lungs don’t work”. Pretty sure I was allergic to something in the field but oh “my lungs don’t work” classic.) 

So I spent the night in bed upright on my best rest pillow, cuddling my body pillow, using my wireless headphones to listen to some music without having to have my laptop on my lap, in my comfy socks, just crying, shivering but feeling like I was hot and touching cold sheets and such felt so good (I didn’t have a fever though, my temperature actually dropped from it’s normal 97 to 95.4). I finally felt well enough to drink some tea and use the heating pad now that I don’t feel like I’m on fire. 

Useful Christmas gifts? I think so. Thank you family!

The UPS tracking information for the giant batch of presents I ordered says it was all delivered an hour ago. I WAS HERE ALL DAY. UPS was across the street, not here. ARE ALL OF MY PRESENTS ACROSS THE STREET? If so, I am never getting them from them. 

No. Stop. No.

I don’t even know what I am supposed to do.

I got a juicer for my birthday. So today I had coffee, tea, and fruit in the form of fresh juices. This may be a coincidence, but, the amount of stomach pain I had today? Almost none. As a number I’d rate it about .5, where it’s normally anywhere from a 2 - 4 on an every day basis and up to an ~8 when it’s “flaring”. I also had tons of energy. TONS. And my knee/elbow pain went way down also. 

So then I ate solid food for dinner. Not really any pain but my stomach doesn’t feel great and I felt like someone sucked ALL of my energy away. I went to bed at like 8pm. (If that doesn’t sound that early, I had only been awake for around 9 hours. Yeah.)

I can only hope that this means that if I just eat mainly fruit and vegetables as juice, along with maybe soups and possibly occasional very small meals with meats and grains, my stomach problems will go away. Although if I have to I would eat no meat or grains at all but I feel from a nutritional stand point that’s probably not as good for the body. 

But if the problems stay or get worse, I received the coziest socks and the softest pillow so I will be content to lounge around forever! Oh man. Lounging around is so much better when everything is soft and comfortable.